Friday, November 30, 2007

I did it! sort of... the loser edition

I only missed one day! More than some can say I guess. More about this later. and that. and the other thing.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Poor Favre.

So the packers lost... now that that's over with...

Hardly anyone is coming to my party! Sad news. I guess I will have to scale it down and have fun with the people I see a lot. That can't be bad, I must see them a lot because I like them, right?

Anyway... (I like ellipses) I think I want go to sleep and get up early tomorrow to go running. Interesting what football viewing does to me. We'll see if I still feel like it at 7:30 tomorrow morning.

Loves to you all!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007


I am always more awake when I get home than when I was out doing something. I really like being home...and I am never here. Oh well.

I worked today and then went to eat with Kelsey for my belated birthday. She took me to The Melting Pot. It was delicious. But when we got there at 6:15, they told us we could eat at 9... So we went to the mall, shopping. I got one of my gifts purchased, and just got another one done online. Let it all begin, baby. Bring it on.

Okey. I am tired now. Nice chatting with ya'll.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Today, one day of many.

I had to work by myself today because my coworker had to go to a doctors appointment. She is a double lung recipient and there is something wrong with her breathing.... definitely a reason to miss work. So almost 8 hours by myself in a little room again, being bored, cold and tempted by chocolate. That has to be some level of hell. It wasn't that bad actually, I wasted at least 2 hours reading the newspaper (I read the WHOLE thing) and filling out a job application. Bad employee, I know. But I got everything, maybe just a resourceful employee. Then I went to hoofers and signed up for DELTA LODGE! Can't wait to work my butt off skiing! After that, I ran with patsy, in the freezing cold. But....(drumroll please) we ran for 27 minutes...with only a two min walking break!!! That means that I ran for 14 minutes straight. And yes, that would be my longest time running w/o stopping EVER. Thankyouverymuch. That's all, besides WI being crushed by Duke. Sad sad. Goodnight!

Monday, November 26, 2007

I will make it to bed before midnight.

Today was a day, just like any other. I had to work 8 hours. Then I made dinner for the Cadwells (not usual, but not so important either). Played with the greatest puppy, and came home to do dishes and laundry, cause my life is glamorous (and yes, I did just check the spelling of that last word by reciting a song in my head). My mom might be coming down on Sat to go to the farmer's market and teach me a thing or two about sewing a table runner. Anything else new..... lets see.... nope.

Goodnight all!


Sunday, November 25, 2007

Why do I wait until I am too tired?

I know I am cheating myself when I wait so long before I post. I am so tired, I don't feel like thinking about what I want or need to write on here.

Today was fun, though. Had miraculous correct change occurances, got more shopping done and put some crafting skillz to the test. Ate DELICIOUS pumpkin cheesecake and watched classic Christmas shows. Alls well that ends well.


So tired, and ten minutes late. Sucky. Worked, spent money, watched nearly 4 hours of the office, season 3. Now will sleep, alone in my house.

Friday, November 23, 2007


An individual life is simple to an unbiased observer. The choices, views, values and relationships seem straightforward and logical. But if that observer becomes participant, he can see that everything is much more complicated. A life is influenced by a thousand sources, some of which he himself cannot name.

People change things. A ring is some shiny rock in a circle, until it is given to someone we love. People make some things sacred. Memories are shared through objects or rituals and these otherwise innocuous moments become much more special. A choice is made with reason alone until it affects those people whom we strive to make happy.

I am not sure where I am going with this, but I am feeling it today and thought I should share it. This next month I am going to lose a number of people from my daily life, and the next year will draw even more away. I am trying not to mourn those losses ahead of time, but it is hard for me not to.

Trying to be happy until the time comes,

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Turkey Turkey

I am tired, and full, and tired. We ate turkey at my aunt's house today. And then I took a nap and we played cards and Blokus. I believe it frustrated the crap out of my family. yay! lol. sorry these have sucked these last few days. This one will suck too, I am tired. Happy Thanksgiving!

I will do a 'what I am thankful for' post soon, probably. No promises. :)

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

At home!

I am so tired, just want to sleep. Today was a pretty dumb day. Work 8 hours, drive in snow for 2. Then I helped make pecan pie with my mom (props to Sheri-her recipe) and watched a guy win $300,000 on Deal or no Deal. hmmm.

So glad that I don't have to work for two days I could pee,

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Tomorrow! Home!

Tomorrow I get to go home (said in a sing song voice)! Diddilee do. I will help my mom bake pies and cook squash (if I ever buy some. hmmmm) and maybe knit and all that great stuff that doesn't involve tolerating desperate chocoholics in need of a fix.

I only have 6 min to finish this.

Today my boss FORGOT that she scheduled HERSELF to work in Madison today with me. So I worked by myself for the first 4 hours, when we were busy enough that I had some trouble finding time to use the facilities in the basement. That is just not cool. Doesn't everyone have a right to pee? Even if you do. need chocolate. NOW. After tomorrow, the store can bite me for two days. Suckas.

Monday, November 19, 2007

Rainy days and Mondays

They don't always get me down. Today was a fine day. Worked 8 hours, had AWESOME pumpkin food at a sustainability dinner and then came home. And decided that I needed a printer. So Jim and I went to Best Buy and I got one for myself for $50. And now I have 10 pages printed that I need for tomorrow. Yee haw. AND I have to fill out and application for a new JOB... which just recently came out of my printer! Also started work on the new Hoofer budget. All in all, a good day. Then there was Tuesday.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

A perfect Sunday

I had a great day. Woke up late. Went to church by myself (something I said I have been working up the courage to do since I graduated high school). Ate lunch with Luke at Panara and made pumpkin cookies. Then.... I went to Cirque du Soleil's Saltimbanco at the Alliant Energy Center. I love love loved it. I have never seen anything like it, I don't think. The music, the colors, the feats. It was the quickest 2 hours of my life, I believe, except for the 15 minutes where I REALLY had to pee, but didn't want to miss the drummers/swinging things people. I don't know how to explain it, but it was awesome. The vocalist had a BEAUTIFUL voice. Just awesome.

For those of you who know me well, I am pretty hard to impress. But this really did it. I recommend this to anyone and everyone who's not in diapers. (although those may have made it easier for me to watch the drummers, lol)

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Rockin game

Tonight I got to try out my new game with Brian and Patsy. And ya know what? Blokus rocks! I sucked big time at it (I lost by like 100 points, no joke) but I think I might be addicted. I might even take it to thanksgiving. There is always this lull after the meal, and there are way too many people to play cards.

Aww. I just realized that Sheri wouldn't be at thanksgiving. I mean, that's not news. But I guess I just tried to picture it, and I wish she would be there, cause I know she would love this game, and probably really enjoy whipping my butt at it too. Sigh. Oh well.

I don't have to work tomorrow! Bring it on!

Friday, November 16, 2007

Christmas, here I come

As much as I would like to deny it, christmas is coming again this year. I can tell. It's getting cold, I am renewing my membership in the 'crazy for shiny things' club, I am planning a party, etc. I am so excited to decorate and bake and.... decorate. Hopefully I can make the first floor of my house look pretty. I know, it might be challenging, but I will try. It's my first party, ya'll.

Ugh, all I can think about is the conversation that I had with one of my roommates tonight and I am upset at the way that I acted, so I might just end this and go to bed. I will end this with a picture of my favorite (living) dog in the world:

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Half day fun

I only worked four hours today, and it was awesome. I came home, made a snack and started making invitations for my Christmas party! So excited. I then went to the dog park with Patsy and then I cleaned the kitchen for like an hour, then my room. I was lucky that I could stop. Once I get in that mood, I'm like a round pencil on a crooked desk.

I hung out with Nikita today too. We watched Grey's Anatomy and just hung out. It was really nice. I miss her, she's too busy with all that 'school' stuff. Whatever.

A new job might be in the future. Stay tuned.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Cheeto makes this difficult

So, this might not be long, because there is an orange cat who decided he couldn't be happier than on my lap at this moment, so I am bent over sideways typing uncomfortably. I don't want to disturb master cheeto. I think maybe the cats have been fighting.

And there he goes. As quietly has he came. Tonight I realized (for the fiftieth time, at least) that I am going to be very very sad to be dogless come December. I know what you are thinking, I am technically dogless now, but Maddy is my pseudo puppy. I mean, I bought her a sweater today and have been kind of stressing out about what to get her for Christmas. Come on. I know I need a dog, but can I have one? Do I deserve one? Probably no. I will have to wait. A dog will be my reward when I get my anchor set somewhere. I don't even know if I have said proverbial anchor.

I talked to my sister today, for like 5 min. It's amazing how that turned my day around. Nothing special was said, but I did learn that a 'pallet' means a bed of blankets on the floor, at least in Georgia. And tomorrow I only work until 2! How exciting....I have many things to do to keep me busy. I might just hang out here, or end up in a coffee shop. Haven't done that in a while.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

New Goal, I guess

Last night I realized that my life has no meaning if I am not working towards something bigger and better than what I have or where I am right now. At the moment, I am stuck in a job that I really don't enjoy at all anymore, but I promised to stay until at least after Christmas. I am stuck in a lease until next August (read: 10 more months) and I am not in school. So I need a new motivation, a new goal. Something that I can control and work towards and will challenge me. I decided to really commit to working out both at Curves and running with Patsy. I also really want to eat better. I guess my real hope is to lose weight as a result of those two desires, but I don't want that to be my only focus, because it's a lot harder when that's all you think about. I went to Curves yesterday and I ran today. Tomorrow I am scheduled for Curves. So far so good.

Christmas is coming up too, and I am making a lot of the gifts I am giving, so I guess that should be a goal too-getting them done. I suppose I should start looking for a new job. I didn't realize it until yesterday, but I was really hoping that Georgia would provide an out, job wise. I need to find some confidence somewhere, enough to get me to apply to jobs and believe that I have skills to do something. Ugh. And then there's the whole 'boy' thing. That will probably show up last on my list, as it has forever. I need to prove to myself that I can accomplish the other things first before I will believe I am able to be liked or loved by someone I don't know yet. One thing at a time I guess.

Monday, November 12, 2007

I know, I know

I missed a day. But I was quite busy and at a house without wireless internet. Yesterday I went to the Packers/Vikings game. The packers beat the hell out of the vikings so it was a good day. This whole weekend was quite trying though. I need to get back in the swing of things and settle down. I also need to figure out what the hell I am going to DO with my life. This is a big task though...where to live, what to do, how to make money, blah blah blah.

I hate talking to people about it though, because everyone expects me to have an answer, and I just don't. Also, today my dad said something about how he would have a baby right now if he could, even though it wouldn't be fair for the kid cause he is old. And then the said that he would just wait for me to have one. UGH! Back off, please. I need to work off some of this anger I think. Hopefully Kelsey and I will go work out when she is done with her internship this afternoon.

Saturday, November 10, 2007


So I might forget some things sometimes. Or a lot of things, often. It's true. I believe forgetting also includes losing things, so, in fact, I have been doubly forgetful. Take yesterday, for example. I forgot to look for my driver's license before I left GA, and I had actually lost it. Today I almost forgot the packer tickets for tomorrow. It's kind of never ending. But I guess I haven't forgotten to blog a day yet in November, and that's saying something, right?

Tomorrow is the Packer game. I must say that I am pretty excited about it! I haven't ever seen a game that close up. I'll probably be able to smell them... ew. Dad and I are spending the night at my Aunt Karen's tonight in Little Chute, WI. We might stay tomorrow night as well, but I am kind of not wanting to right now. Just want to get back into the swing of things in Madison. I guess I should put that off as long as possible, cause it is bound to happen, sooner or later. We just had a HUGE steak dinner with rice, vegitables and bread. Now I am stuffed and tired. But I guess we have to go play with the grandchildren (not mine!) first, before bed. But man, its only 7pm. How old am I anyway?!

Until tomorrow!

P.S. If I forget to change my greeting on my cell phone, forgive me. You know I am not actually in Georgia. :)

Friday, November 9, 2007

The Last Day, and traveling home

Today wasn't the best day I ever spent in Georgia, at least not in the morning. I don't want to go into it, but it was kind of scary, and quite sad. The whole ordeal gave me the opportunity to look within myself, reason and forgive... it ended well. I know none of this makes sense, but.... I guess that sucks for you, cause this is my blog and I will write what I want! After a doctor's visit, Sheri and I went shopping and I ended up with a christmas present from my mom! We bought a Wii for me! We also ate lunch and shopped some more. I also lost my driver's license somewhere, so it was a TREAT getting through security with three non government issued, expired photo IDs.

I didn't get a 'formal offer' for a job from my sister, so I don't know if 1. I didn't do a very good job while I worked for her this week, 2. if she isn't hiring or doesn't need help or 3. If I am supposed to assume that I could have the job and etc w/o her explicitly telling me. I dunno. That's why the direct question would have helped. I question everything to death.

On the way home, I realized that when I am traveling alone, it's like a limbo. I am alone, with all of these strangers, each of us going different ways, many of us alone. Nobody is here or there, home or away. I am almost always sad when I am traveling alone, at least when I am traveling BACK, because of this feeling of... impermanence, I think. I also realize, the only time I EVER drink ginger ale is on air planes. But it is tasty.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Last night

Tonight is my last night away from the good ol' Wisconsin. I am quite sad, as usual. I understand the part of the job that I learned, and really get along with the other people who work there. Thinks seem more natural between me and my sister than they have ever been. Russ is still his cute butted awesome self, and I feel like I can understand the rest of the kids. Sure, there is a ton of drama here, and a lot of arguing, but I still like it. Living is a little more challenging than it is at home.

Tomorrow, I am getting up early again! To take the kids to school, and then go shopping with Sheri. I sometimes wish that I could have grown up knowing her more, because, so far, knowing her better has been pretty awesome.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007


Today, I worked all day again. It still wasn't bad at all, I don't think I would mind that job, especially if I eventually got to assist. It would just be something different and challenging everyday. I guess I am going back tomorrow too, so I am not losing as much time and money at work. Plus, what else would I be doing? Sitting at home by myself, doing nothing? At least I won't be as poor now, and I get to 'spend time' with my sister all day. AKA, listen to her in the other rooms, consoling children and singing. I also really like the other people who work in her office. they were all goofy at the end of the day today and make up funny names for each other. I think I would fit in alright there. I think they like me alright, as far as they know me.

I am so proud to have Sheri as my sister. Ms big shot. The one in charge. He he. I am also very glad that I can come down and visit whenever I want to (and can afford to, of course).

Anyway, tired and have a headache now. probably should sleep.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007


So, today is my birthday, and I am now 23 years old. whooptie do. It wasn't a bad day, overall. I decided that I was going to sleep in (because it's my birthday!) and work a half a day at sheri's office. But when I got there during lunch, she wasn't there, and when she did get there, I realized that there wasn't much work to do for anyone, and the busy work that I know how to do would be everybody's busy work. So I didn't want to be in the way, I would go shopping. I did that a bit and then picked up my 2 youngest nieces and nephew from school. (don't you think they should make one word for plural nieces and nephews? like, brothers and sisters=siblings) Everybody went out to eat at Mikata's Japanese steakhouse for dinner, where Stephanie HAD to tell the host that it was my birthday so they would sing for me, even after I threatened to lick her hand-which I did follow through with as punishment. We got a really cute poloroid picture out of it though.

At home, Brit, Steph, Sheri and I played some cards. After everyone had gone to bed, I got to sit up and talk with my sister for about an hour. Just her and I. And I think that was the best present I could have gotten for my birthday. I love my big sister. :)

Happy Birthday to me.

Monday, November 5, 2007

Working Girl

Today, I worked for my sister and the dental office Holyshit! Leah just fell down the main stairs in the house! How scary! But, no worries, she is ok, just a little shaken. Back to the post.

Working today was actually fun, mostly because I haven't ever done it before. I can easily see that the job that I was doing was one that I wouldn't love doing very often, but because I hadn't done it before, it seemed fine. There was a lot to learn and almost enough to keep me busy. I still didn't really know what I was doing, but at least I made some moola.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I think I am going to sleep in, then go in to work for half a day and see what happens after that. I think my sister is going to make oven fried chicken, which is delish. Truthfully, not too excited for my birthday, but I think that is just because it isn't all that special. 23. yippee.

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Church, and fevers

Today is Sunday. In the south, that means BIG breakfast, Church, and televised sports, namely football and racing. Breakfast = Amazing. Grits, Bacon, Biscuits, and eggs. Delicious. I believe I had two helpings of everything.

I felt pretty awful waking up, sounded like a seasoned smoker, and felt like I might die. So the idea of church wasn't really turning me on. But I went, and it was an experience. People are very emotional about their religion here. It was moving, but also a little unnerving. The parishioners acted like they all knew me, really. And that is even stranger because that was only my sisters 2nd or 3rd time going to the church, so they didn't even really know her all that much, much less me.

We came home and I took an hour long nap, then I was woken up to go to Cracker Barrel for lunch. I was up for food, don't get me wrong. We ate and then went to Wal-Mart. Woo. Came home, watched football and racing, and Spiderman 3. SOMEHOW, we had all of the ingredients for BLTs, including cooked bacon leftover from breakfast, so that became dinner at 9pm.

I might get to work tomorrow, so I should really sleep. Wish me luck!

Saturday, November 3, 2007


So, I guess I get to continue the tradition that my friends started when traveling. I am sick. :( I don't really know what the deal is, but my lungs and esophagus really really itch and are sore. I have to clear my throat almost every time I start talking as well, so I am guessing that I have got some nasty stuff going down in my chest cavity.

Today, my sister was really trying to get me to tell her what I want her to buy me for my birthday, but I hate to ask people for things, it's like telling them, 'buy me this, I am worth at least that much'. So I didn't tell her anything, plus I couldn't remember exactly what I wanted.

I solved this problem by having my mom talk to my sister and read her the list that I gave my mom for my birthday and christmas. I kind of made me mad that I had to explicitly TELL my mom that that was the point, but I guess it got the job done. Off to bed now, I don't want to get sicker than I am already.

Friday, November 2, 2007

Best and worst traveling

I discovered (and rode in) the worst seat on the plane yesterday. Very last row, aisle seat, across from the bathroom. It is so loud because you are near the engine, you can't recline the minuscule (but welcome) two inches that all of the other seats recline, and you are about a foot from the door of the bathroom, which puts people's butts right in your face when they try to get the door open. Of the dozen or so people I saw use the bathroom, 100% of them were guys. I am not sure if that means anything really, but I found it against the odds. Don't go getting jealous of me with all of those butts, most of those guys could easily be considered elderly. ugh. My row partner and I could hear a dog howling in the cargo compartment as well, which was wonderful.

After deplaning, though, I think I was the first to get my back off of the conveyor and I made it to the ground transportation with only like two minutes to spare, which was unprecedented. Usually I have to wait almost a whole hour.

Thats the best and worst of it.

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Day one: Departure

Woo! I finally get to leave, not have to smell chocolate for a week and adopt my southern accent once again! In case there is a crash, I am on a delta flight, #45--. I don't remember the rest right now, but I am sure that narrows it down somewhat. Also, I am flying between Milwaukee and Atlanta, leaving at 12:49 or something. He he. I am kind of counting on not dying this afternoon!

I bet you thought I would forget that today is the first day of NaBloWriMo, but I didn't! Hopefully my sister has wireless access or this might be a harder goal to accomplish than I thought.

Happy Thursday!