Because of reasons unknown, my favorite thing to do lately is sleep. It might be because of stress, the drugs I am taking or a change in my general sleeping habits. Regardless, I am sleeping much more than I used to. And by used to I mean like a month ago. All I want to do right now is go to bed. This makes things hard because I can't get anything done during the day because I am so busy, but I can't get anything done at night because I just want to sleep. So basically, I can't get anything done. I am sure that it doesn't help that I am busy practically every minute that I am awake. But anyway, enough of this crap. On to something new.
Last night I got cold feet about next year. I was having such an awkward, annoying day that I was truly afraid that I really might make my friends hate me. I was just...so... dumb yesterday. Awkward is the perfect word for it, but I already used it once. I might be becoming more self conscious now. Not good, not good at all. Whatever. Ugh. Do most people get seriously annoyed with themselves and their own quirks? Cause I do. And I feel like apologizing to everyone around me. If I am annoyed, I figure they must be too. This makes me want to isolate myself so that I can spare the world of my ridiculousness.
I know that this goes back on my word from post one. I was going to be upbeat only, but this just isn't really possible right now. Sorry guys.