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Mixed Days

This is my horoscope for today, but it totally should have been yesterdays.

You are capable of nursing an old wound, even if you've done therapy, forgiven everyone involved and allegedly moved on. But just because you can remain attached to your past, it's not necessarily the smartest strategy for happy living. You have an opportunity for change now; yet it might require that you look back one more time. Once you figure out how to forgive yourself for your past mistakes, you will be able to move forward.

Also, props go to friend Trans for listening to me and laughing with me through my crazy, Ijustguzzledadietmtdew, listentomyproblems talk

Fuck you, Mr. King

The Whopper invaded my dream again last night. I don't even like whoppers. Soon, The king and I are gonna haveta throw down in the ally behind the Burger King.

Needs

I need someone to hug me and tell me that its all going to be alright. Over and over again.

New, excitinger ambitions

Last night, before the weird bacon/burger king dream, I took some time to look up some of the companies that I could possibly teach for next year. Linguarama made me think that I could teach English in Germany or Italy, but after further review, I could teach German in Germany (HA!) or Italian in Italy. So, nevermind. I found another site though, and I guess I may have already filled out the application cause I am in a 'what the hell, why not!' kind of mood. This company is called English First. They keep talking about a CV that I have to upload. I have no idea what that is, but sometimes they pair it with resume. Like, please upload your CV/Resume at your earliest convenience. I guess I will figure it out sometime. And then I read the part that says that after you apply they should contact you within one week for your interview. I am hoping that is one week after I submit a wonderful CV. Certain Velocity. Carnal Venison. What do you think CV could be?

Dream

Just woke up from a dream, and if you know my dreams, you know they are NUTS. In this one, my friend who writes a blog about eating healthily wrote a post about how awesome Burger King is, and how we would all be so surprised to see how many great choices they have. Come to find out, she is actually living above a Burger King (in the dream). I visited her there, and as we left to go do something, this woman and her grandma or great aunt or something came up to us and told us about how they stopped at a soup stand and then at some sort of watermelon rolling race. The old lady told the story first and I swear it was in another language, the younger one translated. The second part of my dream revealed my lack of confidence in running. Basically I couldn't run as far as everyone else and I felt defeated. The last thing I remember is eating a really long, perfectly cooked piece of bacon. mmmmmmmm bacon.

Stress on a Chocolate Saleswoman

I am exhausted. Usually I don't believe people when they say that they are worn out from driving, but I think that might be why I am unable to get up from the loveseat, even to make ramen. I drove home on Wednesday of last week, back on Thursday, back home again on Sunday night, back here last night. I am officially going home and coming back again on Thursday for the funeral of my grandpa.

I don't feel all that sad about my grandpa dying. That's what happens to old people - that's what I am telling myself, and he has ALWAYS been old in my lifetime. I am sad for my dad and my aunt and uncles, they knew him when he wasn't old.

The hunger is overpowering the exhaustion now. Ramen, here I come!