DUAL POST

First of all, my baby blog is 100 posts old now! Happy Birthday blog!

Second of all, it's Friday, so I must say how I am going about accomplishing my goals.

It's been a rough week kiddies.

• I started my new job, and that in itself has been stressful, so I haven't wanted to do much afterwards. But it is working toward getting out of dodge.
  
• Eating... welll... it got better throughout the week. Now if I can only make it through the weekend without overdoing it.
• I MIGHT be getting a digital SLR this weekend. Dad is coming down and we are going Christmas shopping. I am not getting my hopes up, but this would count as starting to learn something new. If I get one, I plan on taking a mini class through the Union.
• I had a rough week. Cut me some slack. I know I am. Which brings me to 'going easier on myself'. Sucka!
  

I had a bad day, blah blahblah blah

Why today kind of sucked:

• I was late to work at James J
• I got yelled at by boss #1
• Was TWENTY minutes late for Job #2
• Missed my father's phone calls 3 times, and got yelled at by him via voicemail
• Realized that I was placed in a late-leaving vehicle for a trip that I requested off extra days for
• Realize now that I have to get up early to pick my dad up at the airport, when he was supposed to come in tonight. He missed his flight out of New York. Sigh

Here's to hoping tomorrow is better!

come on life!

So, I am not sure why, but it seems as though my life has been sucking lately. Well.. ok, fine. Just today sucked. All I did was, get up, go to work #1, work, travel to work #2 whilst eating lunch, work, come home, ate crappy soup, frosting out of the can and chips and salsa, and watched a football game that I didn't care about.

Job #2 is not so much fun, but at least I am not eating chocolate. Count the number of times you have seen that written before. Within 5 minutes of my being there, I had a kid sitting on my feet with his arms around my legs. So that seems like a good sign, and I think I did well on my first day. Mondays are 5 hours long, whereas tues-friday it is only 3 hours. Now that I know the basics - how to get in to the building, what my supervisor looks like, how many kids to expect, etc. Things should go easier. Don't ask me HOW I am going to learn 50 kids' names, like, ever.

The good ol' days:One more for good measure:

Toughen

Have you seen 'P.S. I love you'? I saw it today, and it made me sad.

I think I have a fear of abandonment. I am so sentimental (see a couple of posts ago) I fear losing things for the rest of my life. There are a lot of things to lose, and if I get so very upset every time a friend goes home, someone moves away or Christmas ends, forheavenssake, I am in a world of hurt. Which, I guess the world does hurt. I just feel pins as butcher knives.

I need to toughen up, but I don't really want to. Does that make me masochistic or crazy? (also, I am a little frightened that I spelled masochistic right on the first try)

The First Day and then some

Today was my first day at my new job, technically. I don't really remember why everyone and their grandma knows this, but I got a lot of questions about how it went and so forth. Let me tell you, it was boring, slightly humiliating, and eased my fear about the upcoming job. Boring, because it was generally a three hour lecture about the rules and regs of the job, complete with about a hour's worth of paper work. Embarrassing because I forgot EVERY item that I needed to bring with me, ID, Social Security Card, Transcript. That will be taken care of tomorrow. But the detail that the orientation went into gave me a brighter and clearer picture of what can be expected and what I can expect in the upcoming weeks.

I have decided that I am serious about my resolutions this year. Fridays I would like to reflect on what I have done to make my goals come true, just to keep me on track. Of course, every week I might not get something done on EVERY goal, but this is just to keep my focused.

This week

• I have drastically cut down on the number of times I have chewed my cheeks out of nervous habit. I know that is contributing to my skin problems and it just looks weird.
  
• I went snowshoeing, which was a ton of exercise, but followed it up by a cheeseburger and fries... I will have to work on that. But I am taking steps, such as trying to cut down on portion sizes and leaving food on my plate (especially at restaurants).
• I count snowshoeing as guy hunting as well, because if I don't count things like this, I won't have anything to report on
• Getting this job is a step in getting my own place, because hopefully it will lead to a better paying job than the one I already had at the Chocolate Shop. The only pitfall I can see is that if I actually LIKE this job, the feelings will conflict with my desire to move out of Madison soon.
  

There's the update. I will try to stay on task and have exciting developments for you next week!

Thoughts

"Happy New Year" is the longest duration of happiness one wishes upon someone else that isn't said with sarcasm. At least most of the time... I can think of times when someone is on their death bed and wishes someone a good life, or when someone meets a baby. 'course, I can think of a lot of weird things someone might say on their death bed.

2008

Some things I thought of that I want to do:

• Learn something new (like how to work a Digital SLR? Piano lessons? Computer skills?)
• Lose weight (no really?!)
• Devise a plan to get out of this hell hole some call a house
• Stop biting my cheeks... it just looks weird and can't be healthy
• GET A DOG
• FIND A BOY
• Go easier on myself and others

A short list is easier accomplished than a long one. Happy New Year all!